Being Loved by God

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We, as human beings, were created to love and be loved. Females especially have this ache in their heart, as we were given nurturing instincts by God. Many girls grow up thinking they are unlovable, not good enough, not beautiful enough, not ‘quiet’ enough, not this or that or anything else–enough. Look at magazine ads we are saturated with and you’ll see that those false images of the perfect female completely devalues our self-worth…IF we don’t have God’s deep love in our hearts.

Before I became a Christian, I was hungry for true love that I thought could only be found in a man. My self-worth was dependant on it and I never truly felt good enough or that I could be fully loved completely. I didn’t think I was good enough to be loved, and I saw myself as too flawed. For hours everyday I would plaster on makeup and creams and try to be perfectly appealing to others, never feeling comfortable just being me. I wouldn’t allow my weaknesses to show and did everything I could to make myself look perfect to others.

But there’s only One who is perfect. And I am unconditionally loved by Him even in my weaknesses, even when everything in my heart is laid out before Him, exposed and vulnerable. My most bare self is beautifully loved by Him.

Not some of me, but all of me. Loved by Him. And because of He loved me first, now all of me loves Him.

His love c h a n g e d me.

When God whisked me off my feet that one wintery night in December two years ago, I literally became a new woman. For the first time in my life, I was wholly and perfectly and fully and divinely L O V E D. By Him who is perfect, God Himself. My longings to be good enough and pretty enough for another person melted off of me like wax, revealing my true identity for the first time. My true identity in Christ. All of my attention-seeking habits fell off of me, one at a time, (and still are!) as He has so lovingly taught me that He sees me as altogether beautiful. That my love ravishes the heart of GOD. That my love for Him delights Him and brings Him pleasure. That He’s passionate for me. I’m loved by Him, and because it’s so perfect, I’m not desperate for love from others.

When you are personally and intimately loved by the Creator of the sun and moon and stars, you are completely whole. It’s what humans are made to crave, yet the majority of humanity tries to fill that gap of needing perfect love with imperfect love in other humans. And it leads to brokenness and pain.

This is not to say love from other humans or a significant other is bad; it’s good and beautiful and a gift from God. But when you look to those people to love you perfectly, and not find it in God first above all other loves, it leads to a huge void and gap in our hearts.
He’s our first love. He’s our divine lover.

We were made by Him and for Him and until a soul realizes this, life will never make sense.

{Song of Songs 4}
“You have captured my heart, my treasure, my bride.
You hold it hostage with one glance of your eyes,
With a single jewel of your necklace.
Your love delights me, my treasure, my bride.
Your love is better than wine,
Your perfume more fragrant than spices.
Your lips are as sweet as nectar, my bride.
You are my private garden, my treasure my bride,
A secluded spring, a hidden fountain.”
The bliss and pleasure of being loved by Him is out of this world.

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