Walking Closely With Jesus

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When we are weak, weary, and feel like giving up, we can be rest assured, that for the people that He has redeemed, He will stand with us and strengthen us.

He will walk with us.  E v e r y  step of the way. Through every season, every challenge, every new day.

Walking closely with Jesus can be hard. We at times face opposition in both the tangible, physical world, and the invisible, spiritual world. But even during the hardest of seasons – those seasons where we are in so much despair and are tempted to give up…

We can’t give up. We  s i m p l y  can’t.

Because He who is much stronger than us is holding us tightly to Himself. He is the One who strengthens us.

Because even during tumultuous seasons, we have Life within ourselves. We are spiritually alive, even during times of despair. We might stumble around for a season like a baby trying to walk, but we will…

A l w a y s

A l w a y s

A l w a y s  come back.

I remember a time I was worn out and weary because of the spiritual warfare I was experiencing. I felt weak and I needed His strength. I had recently done something radical for Him in my life and the spiritual opposition I faced was almost unbearable at the time.

I felt disconnected from Him during this time of testing. He felt so distant. I felt lost during this season and the winds that blew on me were rigid and harsh.

In my moment of weakness and need of attention from Him, I thought, “what’s the point? I’ll just do things I used to enjoy before I was saved. I’ll just go out and get drinks with friends like I used to.”

No, I had not an ounce of desire for that.

So that didn’t work. My next thought came, “I’ll just spend all my time watching movies and binging on tv shows to ease the pain.”

Nope, I had absolutely no desire for it. I couldn’t even force myself to sit down and watch tv. They don’t call it ‘programming’ by accident.

So that didn’t work. I then said, ‘okay, I’ll go listen to all that secular music I used to listen to’ (instead of worship music).

No – I turned on the radio and heard some song playing for about 15 seconds, I cringed, then immediately turned it off. Just hearing sexual or worthless lyrics grieved my heart.

So that didn’t work. Next thought, ‘I’ll go on a date with that guy who I know doesn’t love You or believe in You, since I’m not getting attention from You…”
N e v e r. N e v e r. Never in a million years would I even consider a man who is not passionately in love with Jesus.

So that definitely didn’t work. I was so desperate for God’s closeness and to be relieved of the testing I was going through that I was willing to say anything to stir Him.

But He knows me. He knew my heart and that I sincerely didn’t mean  a n y  of it.

That’s because…

He  r e m o v e d  those worldly desires.
I couldn’t bring myself to do those things which I know grieves His Spirit. I love Him so much that I just can’t. The desire for any kind of carnality has been removed from me and He’s still removing it as I walk deeply with my God.

In the very next moment after saying these foolish things, I turned and ran to Him, heart overcome with longing for Him. I cried to Him, read scripture, listened to a biblical teaching, and praised Him, telling Him how much I love and need and adore Him. It’s all I could do. It’s all I  w a n t e d  to do.
Why?

Because I have eternal  L I F E  within myself. When you have eternal life inside of you, you crave deeply the eternal things of God. Because, no matter how hard it gets…

HE is all I want.

No matter what season I happen to be in –  highs and lows, victories and failures. Even when I’m weak and stumbling and falling like a child. Child I may be, but I’m His child nonetheless.

God lives in me, and my desire for the things that have nothing to do with Jesus do not interest me anymore. Even at my darkest hour, I can’t get far away from my King, the One whom my soul loves. Nor do I ever want to.

With my nature changed by His Spirit, I now have a natural inclination and desire for the things of God. And a natural distaste for the things that do not please God or hold no eternal value.
Eternal life craves the things of eternal life. The spiritually dead crave the things that are spiritually dead.
This is a good way to examine yourself. What does your heart crave m o s t?

{Song of Solomon 3:1-4}
On my bed night after night,
I sought the One whom my soul loves;
I sought Him but did but did not find Him.
I said, ‘so I must arise now and go out into the city;
Into the streets and into the squares.
I must seek Him whom my soul loves.
I sought Him but I did not find Him.
The watchmen who go around the city found me,
And I said, ‘have you seen Him whom my soul loves?’
Scarcely had I passed them,
When I found Him whom my soul loves.
I held on to Him and would not let Him go.

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